A question rather than an update: I came off because it was not safe for me
I have been sitting on this for a month.
This is the third time I have started this post and the first time I have got to the end of it, so I am going to press the button before I lose my nerve.
What I would find useful is knowing whether anybody else has felt this way about it, because from inside my own head it seems like an unreasonable reaction.
That is all. Thank you for being the kind of place where this can be written down.
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