The quiet is not the same as peace

I cried the first week. Not from relief exactly. From something closer to grief for how much effort I had been spending without knowing it.

I did not realise how much of my planning had been about this until it stopped. Entire structures in my week turned out to exist for a reason that had gone.

Mine did not go entirely quiet, it went quieter, and I want to say that because the total-silence accounts made me feel like something had not worked.

Grateful you posted rather than kept it to yourself.

Mine went quiet within about ten days and I did not trust it for months. I kept waiting for it to come back and prove the whole thing had been my imagination.

Coming back two years on to say the quiet held, that the adjustment was real, and that I would not go back to how my head sounded before.

What nobody told me is that it comes back sometimes, in patches, and that this is ordinary rather than a sign anything has stopped working.

What helped was writing down what the noise had actually been, while I could still remember it clearly. Six months later the memory of it had gone soft.