Interoception was already unreliable and now it is worse Writing it down partly to work out what I actually think.
Not asking anyone to fix this. Mostly saying it out loud somewhere it will be read kindly.
I have spent a long time managing everybody else's feelings about this and I have not looked at my own, and that is what this post is.
This is difficult to write and I have deleted it twice. I am posting it now mostly because leaving it in drafts has not made it any easier to carry.
That is all. Thank you for being the kind of place where this can be written down.
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