A question rather than an update: How I talked to my treatment team about wanting to try this
I have been sitting on this for a month.
This is difficult to write and I have deleted it twice. I am posting it now mostly because leaving it in drafts has not made it any easier to carry.
I have told nobody in my life about this part of it, which after two years is starting to seem like the problem rather than a way of managing it.
That is all. Thank you for being the kind of place where this can be written down.
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