Something I have been sitting with: How this circle differs from every other room I have been in Not looking for advice so much as other people's experience.
This is a difficult one to write and I have deleted it twice.
What I want is company rather than an answer, and I have learned that this circle is one of the few places where asking for that is not strange.
I have told nobody in my life about this part of it, which after two years is starting to seem like the problem rather than a way of managing it.
That is all. Thank you for being the kind of place where this can be written down.
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