What my CPN suggested about monitoring Writing it down partly to work out what I actually think.
Not asking anyone to fix this. Mostly saying it out loud somewhere it will be read kindly.
The thing I keep coming back to is that I expected to feel one way and I feel another, and the gap between those is what I want to talk about.
I have been sitting on this for a month and it has not got smaller, which I gather is how these things usually go.
What I want is company rather than an answer, and I have learned that this circle is one of the few places where asking for that is not strange.
If you have felt anything like this, I would like to know. If you have not, that is worth knowing too.
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